Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Because I still can't get over ep. 24... 


here's a 002 by my razer mouse

Thursday, July 5, 2018

It'z cool I own the first baby of its kind across all english servers~

Saturday, June 30, 2018


I hope she gets into the top 3 and gets something pretty.  The teacher outfit was such a flop...  Currently she's the second most voted so there's a good chance :B

Rubiana's one of those who grew on me.  
She has been the fighter at the forefront of all the victories won in the fields 


Tuesday, June 26, 2018

I met my match, a thousand times worse.

I'm Ice and that one over there is Empty.

Sunday, May 27, 2018

In the end, you have only yourself to rely on.
No one else will do it for you.  They're busy hustling their lives.
So give it your all no matter how unlikely the outcome.

Sunday, May 20, 2018

lag is the lemon

Saturday, May 19, 2018

Someone's managed to say what I've wanted to say for so long!

So as I was indulging in guilty-pleasure I came across this...
"I don't go out if I don't want to," ... "if I am exhausted and my body knows it, I listen to that and I bail."

Spot on.  Exactly my point of view (but I may have taken it a bit too far).  I don't want to die doing something y'know.  I've had enough of feeling tired, bad, listless, lifeless, worn out for the day.  I used to be on top of everything for the first few years but after three, it led to a gradual decline.  Now, I stop doing if I feel unfit to, even if it gets me fired or fail in something bla bla...

In line with that it may be regarded as thinking short-term.. Why bail a responsibility that secures you or when bailing can lead to a pitfall?

But if I wouldn't die (physically) without it... why not (if I can afford to)...? I wouldn't want that something at the expense of my well-being.  At the end of it, just make sure plan B is ready.  As long as I'm in good shape there will be ways to work around.  I just have to seek what truly makes me happy, and lower the expectation bars to the point where I can live simply?  An exorbitant life isn't required right?

Too pampered?

Maybe.

It is thoughts like these that impede productivity (says me while I am typing this even though I should be working on something else).  At times I feel justified to do so and there are times I don't.  You have to work hard to achieve!  It is a waste to let opportunities slip by.  I know I know, but I still give in very much to the former.  Is being a great achiever what I really want in life?  Is it?

Has my perception of what has been meaningful to me changed?

Or is it that I'm still served on my privileged chair that I do not have to worry even if I fail or fall rock bottom because my family can still back me up?  I guess.

Whatever it is, I should track back to the latter thought...  It is just the most favorable circumstance so yes Me, don't give up.  Instead, work on organising schedules to be less painful while managing challenges and struggles.  Ideally yes...  But right now I'm already stuck in trying to make it happen or keep it up.  Life is not a bed of roses they say.  So dealing with it is all I can... unfortunately.

*

Ok.  Now I want to talk about GE.
Tempura's birthday was on 12/5/2017.
It's been a year now.
Surprisingly, it wasn't even half as bad as what I had imagined on coming out from my comfortable nest and starting out anew in unfamiliar grounds; even more so when having to put up against the established 'best' right from the beginning.

The fears of not being in the dominating faction/ being in the lesser faction were on issues with security, fairness, transparency, support and avenues for in-game progression.  I believe everyone has these same few considerations.

To be frank I was spoon fed back then (in At****).  I was not directly involved in the nuts and bolts of handling and establishing internal politics and governance, and driving the group forward.  All I had to do was to input ideas, aid in discussions and commit/participate/support.

What I had expected to be the worst turned out OK after all, in fact even much better when able to accomplish things I never thought could be done given the circumstances.  Although the starting was choppy (and still is, now and then but of lesser extent), none of the worst outcomes once feared fledged fully and were all dealt with and overcame. 

I now understand some of the themes and woes like "for the faction" that never seem to hit me back then.  And from this I've grown a huge disdain for people who place self-gain first instead of genuinely working together as a faction.

I still hate the faction name though.

Tuesday, May 8, 2018


Saturday, May 5, 2018

I need more Aioli in my life.

Monday, April 16, 2018

:D :D 

Thursday, April 5, 2018

I daydream of all the things w...

Friday, March 23, 2018

Saturday and Sunday nights are no longer looked forward to

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

I heavily regret passing it to useless person 1 when I could have held on and passed it to deserving person 2

Tuesday, February 27, 2018


Tuesday, February 20, 2018


the oh-shit parts of the map hidden away from us.
I wanna be able to venture into that dark rubble-filled alley. 

Monday, February 19, 2018


the people who play for fun.

Thursday, February 8, 2018

I logged in my Runescape account that was created back in 2004 trying to see if there were any friends online like I remarkably saw when I randomly logged in in 2016 but not this time.

Monday, January 29, 2018

Despite everything, there was no hate.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Certainly one I want to keep.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

I don't understand.  I can't see any good in him.

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Sapphie is the dog I have alive.  She follows and accompanies me when I cook or shower and sleeps beside me when I suffer in distorted.

Thursday, January 11, 2018



........

Tuesday, January 9, 2018


<333

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

SOOO the girl who used to like me is so beautiful now ,_,

While

I

Friday, December 22, 2017



at least 26 huh...

Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Who will be getting a new costume this Christmas?

Sunday, December 17, 2017

Cheerful old white bearded Santa Claus is so cute

Thursday, December 7, 2017


Wednesday, December 6, 2017

Login screens friggin stretched these days

Monday, December 4, 2017

Talk is cheap.  Nothing worth buying.

Friday, December 1, 2017


Thursday, November 30, 2017


AHHHHH

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

HAHHA SHIT 
such combo

also when they do mission with 12 or 30 roulettes

sorry fed.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Lookatwhat
mah friend named K gave to me

I know you love Tempura u.u




ty this iz the best-


 An actual representation of where Tempura would go to

Wednesday, November 22, 2017


wtf ,_,

I miss Catherine..
so I see the tag beside my name.  6-7 years of work to the drain~

on a side note surprising to see some Luminescence™ peeps back at the current SGE but


Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Thursday, November 16, 2017

I get 2x hails.  All hail me



Winking at L errday ~

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

On the 3rd and the last roll I'd try, I said

L, if you love me please come to me~


And she did

On the very last card I flipped.

Tuesday, November 14, 2017


I saw this from the very start..
But I ditched my future in GE and followed the one I liked better.

Monday, November 13, 2017

My dear Illumiva· is now 2 years old on 12th Nov.  Yey!

Monday, November 6, 2017

The world is getting younger than me.  This isn't good.

Saturday, November 4, 2017

fed up

Monday, October 23, 2017

I oddly do not give a shit about dying anymore.
Maybe it's because I have already achieved the result I wanted before the closure that nothing else really matters anymore

Deep down I know they can't.

What a dick I am

Thursday, October 12, 2017

NEW BGM.

ADDICTEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

I need a warp sorting function because I want them in alphabetical order.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017


That moment.  Was extremely infuriating. 

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

I forgot what I wanted to write about

and yesss this horrible year is ending

but


I wasn't lying.  Every latency issue hits me the hardest.  Never delay-free even on the most normal days.
Also, being 15,963 km away from the server (apparently the 3rd farthest city away excluding the whole of New Zealand, which is the farthest point away) doesn't make it any better.

Monday, September 25, 2017


WHY IS HER FACE SO PERFECT?

why
WHY
why

Saturday, September 2, 2017

I also need instant cancellation of pets even if I'm out of range,

and pet swapping even when dead,

and messages to not get cut off when warping,

and "wall-type-kb" to be fixed,

and an option in the armonium ore mass production function to be able to collect refined blue harmoniums while the other red harmoniums are still being processed,

and someone to know his place,

and the majority of the first 20 rankers to stop being bastards,

woes woes woes.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Heated food displays should actually be constructed with laminar airflow systems.  Food left at a non-enclosed warmer is just paradise for microbial growth.

Also, the World Cross PVP matching system for Team PVP should revise their algorithm to match players not only based on ranks but also in accordance with the characters selected.  The latter should be contingent on normalized character win rates and for this to be appropriate the character win/lose data set should be reset every month.

Because, character balancing is a problem.
Or rather, never looked at in the context of WXPVP.  Based on this alone why would the 2nd paragraph of this post be brought into picture at all.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

why is everything so annoying

Friday, August 25, 2017

I need to friggin' love what I'm doing in order to excel but how no no no.

It needs to be the first thing I think about after a night's sleep.
It needs to be the first thing I get back to naturally whenever possible.
It needs to be in my dreams.

Basically 24/7.

But what doesn't get into my heart doesn't get into my mind.

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Flipped one of my older notebooks and came across pages like these :') ... 
Was used thoroughly for a period of time last year when I was commanding CW :DDD

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

it's not a dream

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

whatev want

https://ask.fm/asphyxiiaa
nom's dress.  steamed with love and hung prettily in her closet.

Monday, August 21, 2017

Thanks to some fights I know where my standing is (severely insufficient) and has given me some direction

Clique battle is a delusion

Friday, August 18, 2017

D:

Thursday, August 17, 2017

"10-100% extra ATK to non-creature type enemies"

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

It's been years and the layout of Wikipedia is still the same.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Very upset.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

This no more.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

I REALISED WHY I DO NOT EAT LAMB

emg so innate

Monday, August 7, 2017

SGE 2.0?  My ass.  This ISN'T even half as close to SGE's tenacity; wars before 2016 inclusive, excluding 2014-2015 where there was the stupid CW division system and Ultimate only gave a couple of CWs in Feb for the whole year.

2016 was peak Y loved it.
why must the earth complete 360ยบ rotation in like 24hrs i need so much more

Sunday, August 6, 2017

The problems go round and round

Thursday, August 3, 2017

This is legitly cute <3

I now have beach wear for nom and illumi.
Anis diver suit where??????

and why White Wolf's shoulders so narrow...

Monday, July 31, 2017

All the GE characters are clearly not human but they don't address that in the story and pass them off as mortals.

Saturday, July 29, 2017

FIGHTERS.  Never stop overcoming their fears.

Friday, July 28, 2017

Leona and lemon mouse are gonna get Chuseok costumes - better not be lame.

I wish for a long hairstyle for lemon mouse like the one I drew!

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Why is it sometimes so addictive to watch them characters afk?

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

I can only look from afar,
and watch it crumble.

But not for me,
it _____.

Whatever have I done,
to have this fall upon me?

Monday, July 24, 2017

Weaknesses and limitations are apparent and yet talking big.  Hello?!

Saturday, July 22, 2017

i stalked and saw u.u

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

I associate this piece with her


Thanks.  Now I don't have to.
and I want baby pink baby blue baby purple swords and sabres for Leona too pls.

Monday, July 17, 2017

randomly recalled and stuck in my head while writing science i don't know what's the link but anyway









i've also had weird pop ups like yue liang dai biao wo de xin and they're big distractions

Saturday, July 15, 2017

SHOULD I GIVE VEIL 2X ADVENTURE OF SPIRIT
i want to..
It's been a year.  The sky out of my window is once again decorated with an influx of colourful hot air balloons at the crack of dawn.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017



Tuesday, July 11, 2017

The worst thing that could happen in AW is to be trapped (cuz flags) in a town ALONE (as good as alone when the 2-3 allies around do not even use prin pots) with misc characters + MMA charging in from all directions wherever respawned for more than 15 minutes.  And that happened to me.

It's also time to embrace the lovely incoming 40k~60k crit dmgs in WXPVP from Dark Nena.

IMC balancing BEST!

Monday, July 10, 2017

I'm never going to enhance magic stuff ever again.  I spent 900~1000 vet chips on a crafted necklace and it went down to +0 what the hell

Sunday, July 9, 2017

I made my mother happy because she finally managed to dig out a huge ear wax (ew) and can now hear better.

I told my family the best ear diggers are actually those interdental brushes (0.45~0.5 mm) that you would normally use for your teeth.


She now keeps the huge ear wax in a small air-tight translucent box as a souvenir. . . . ....
Ahh it hurts

Thursday, July 6, 2017

I'm muted.

...
I'm doing my best to get you clothes OK? (Robe)
But you might be better without.

tbh I want that sit pose more than that swimsuit.
What if you get removed from existence because you have no contributory role?  You may be shielded and sheltered but it creeps up to you on this basis.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017


This is so bad
sometimes i wanna know who my readers are u.u
i never publicised after i reopened
it was intended for only me.
but people came.
not that it's a bad thing.
i'm just surprised my low-quality prattle
is even worth reading

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

PRECIOUSSS JEWELLERYYYYYYYY

Sunday, July 2, 2017

GMs did something to AW.  GMs are great.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

 Wew new mail.


Oh. 
AHAHAHAH SO SMOL.
Can you not.

Friday, June 30, 2017

I don't like that my mental strength is getting weaker day by day.

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

I visit here from time to time but blank out on what I should write, record down, or prattle on; eventually closing the tab.  Never realised until now that posting something new on a regular basis is quite a difficult task, especially when I've no escapades whatsoever in the game.

I could go on discussing about current and upcoming characters and/or skill sets, but they're all pretty straightforward and done in my head.  Also, I encourage freethinking instead of being imprinted by "models" or opinions although exemplary results shown in game easily impedes this process.  Who doesn't like something guaranteed or shortcuts right?

I would eschew mentioning server politics...

Guides - everyone has it all in starstorm and elsewhere.

Quirks, maybe.  Just not much lately cause' I'm sitting on something else that has to be done.

I'll think about it again next time.  Much more convenient if something exciting happens.  Then again I should remember this is my vomit board so nothing needs to be relevant.

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Upgrade and optimisation are two different things...

and the people complaining lag but with so many kills....................................................... = near smooth gameplay.  I'm so salty over this.

Friday, June 23, 2017

It's not real, I believe it isn't

Anyway and so I saw someone's character named WantonMee. really. why. why did i have to read it.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Been 6 years and the developers still don't know how to balance characters in wx I wanna scream

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

watch not near not

Tuesday, June 13, 2017